I gave you the quote from scripture. You seem to have trouble reading.

Your interpretation is upside down you are so beguiled by the first and foremost false prophet.

I applaud your present ability to love your life. That means from scripture quoted above that you will die and bear fruit.

But it does not matter how you came to love your life. Being born again works well especially for those who had really dastardly lives, really hateful lives, like Saul in perseciting the Christians. For them something as drastic as terminating their hateful lives and following the example of christ is necessary to love life again.

Did you really have such a dreadful life as Saul?

You see what counts is to love your life, and your enemy, and your friend and your god. It does not matter how you got there. In the USA life is so good that most of us are already there without taking such drastic measures.

That is my belief. But it is not belief that counts. It's actions. See my response to DoctorDick above.

Richard