Dear Jisbond,
Your writing in the post above actually resembles some of my writing
at a point in my life when I was very anxious but produced some worthwhile thoughts.
I found it is unnecessary for me to find any formula. I found it is impossible to completely satisfy anyone. If I called you psycho, it is not to damage you or brand you. Some of those notes really seem crazy and over-wrought...going on and on about the personal lives of folks you don't even know....and you don't say you have made a major study of these topics in university or anything. It's as if you have been brainwashed.
I don't know if you realize it, but these questions were with us before modern religions were founded. I believe in values intended to allow you to live love and success. Our American Constitution and its Amendments are better than any religion for some of these purposes. It does not compete with religion in determining your personal choices, but protects the rights of folks with varying degrees...if we can agree to live by this system.
Do you agree?
Mike